My First Audience: Peering Little Glass Clowns
I was about 8 years old. My mom brought me to her friend's house for piano lessons. I remember carrying my orange music book into a room of little glass clowns peering at me. I don't remember much about the lessons, but I remember the room smelling of mothballs and fresh cookies. Not the perfect pair, but the cookies were delicious.
We began the lesson going over the basics. I hit the keys to a slow melody of twinkle, twinkle, little star, but I could feel the little glass clowns staring at my every move. They were my "first" audience with smiles and wide eyes glued to their faces.
That moment was exactly how I felt when I performed for the first time in high school. I do not know how I survived, but I did! I find myself performing in places that I never thought I would. I still get the nerves at times. If I make a mistake, the show must go on.
Three things that help me with stage anxiety: Practice, Breathe Awareness and having fun because it's what you love to do.
Maybe those little clowns were telling me to have a sense of humor, have fun and enjoy the stage! That's what I have to tell myself each time I go out there.
Was there a time in your life you felt afraid to be in front of an audience? How did you cope?